i surrender!
or
why am i even doing this?


sometimes i hate my band, especially when things start to get too complicated and everyone begins to lose focus on what we originally set out to do. and i hate worrying about that. i hate worrying that we are going to suck all the time. i hate moody bitch-ass drummers. i hate feeling that all the songs i write suck (and what i record sucks). i hate trying to impress anyone. i hate worrying about what color artwork is supopsed to look like. i hate recording. i hate mixing. arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!